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Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behaviour between two or more social entities. This article focuses on the notion specific to interpersonal relationships. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem and affection. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for many, friendship is nothing more than the trust that someone or something will not harm them.
Value that is found in friendships is often the result of a friend demonstrating on a consistent basis:
- the tendency to desire what is best for each other.
- sympathy and empathy.
- honesty, perhaps in situations where it may be difficult for others to speak the truth.
- mutual understanding.
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Alright, it's true, I feel awful bad. People think I'm not good because of some people that moved to Spain and I can't see them. But the truth is if I feel so much bad it's because, first, it kills me people are living a dream I've always wanted : living and studying abroad. Then, because I must admit I'm kind of jealous since I spent like 2 months living with them, and now they're living together without me, but it don't seems to bother them, on the contrary. And finally, because I thought I had friends to whom I've told and shared things I've never tell before to anyone, but it means nothing to them. That might sounds gay, cliche or whatever but I assume that since it hurts, for real. I mean I used to play to the guy that makes jokes and laughs with everyone but I was probably the guy with the less level of assurance on earth, I was even scared to ask for some sauces at Mcdo.
Anyway, I met this guy and new people, become more confident for whatever reasons and decide it's cool to finally have people you can talk to. So I've started thinking people can actually worth something so you don't have to hide yourself anymore and can lay down your arms.
And then, these people aren't there for you anymore, but as you now know you can talk to people, you're not alone, so it doesn't really matter if they're gone.
Apparently, you can just take people, share things and when it's done, you move on. Well that was not my point of view and it hurts so much I guess because I really didn't expect a such issue.
I'm not saying you have to speak or even love people for the rest of your life once you've spend some time with them, but just if you like it well then you do everything you can so that can continue, at least you can pretend to do something.
But giving up seems to be so easy...
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So, here I am, a whole new me. I would not say it's a better me, but it's a different me which is not bad at all. I've lost lots of things from friends to weight (15kg), and gain other things from money to sexiness. My parents move to Reunion island in 6 days which makes me the only one living in my big house, so that's rock'n roll.
And talking about that, I've been visiting Sijeka in London like 3 weeks ago and that was really cool (minou I miss ya), she has definitely gained a million of rock'n roll points living in London and eating at Wagamama.
Anyway, life goes by...
I realize I did not blog these days because, well I have a social life. I mean ya know it's that internet-consumption-decrease-as-your-life-and-activities-increase-thing. Anyway, I'll work in a bank for this summer like in a week and I still don't know if I have to wear suits or what. But to sum up my life, I'm fine, really. I met knew people and some of them change my life, and I kinda like that.
So I won't go to Canada this year because... well the reason is not very important in fact I just can't go to Canada. So I feel like AWFUL BAD but I tell people I'm happy, I smile and laugh. I don't really know why I can't say how that's affect me. Anyway, I'm not good but I'm okay...
Exam tomorrow.
I have to get a 2/20 to pass.
I believe in me.
I'm not dead but in vacation...
Wife: That's what Bill said...
Husband : Oh Fuck Bill !
Wife : You shouldn't say that.
Husband: Why ??
Wife : Because I do fuck Bill. .... Well, in fact, He fucks me.
Separates Lies. I really loved that movie. Ya know that's a typical English kind of movie, a bit like Match Point concerning the atmosphere, relaxing but anxious. It's a new genre of movie I discovered and I really appreciate it.
I wish I could say the reason I did not post these days is because I have spent most of the time with my babe-a-licious girlfriend but well, I'm not a liar. But I had a social life, and plenty of friends to see. You know has no one can go to the Uni was always out with some friends. I even had new friends. We just go out and talk for hours in my car, then as it's 6 am we decide to go to some bakery and buy some pains au chocolats, brioches et autres croissants. Talking about my car, like a week ago I had a puncture on the parking of my university. So I've phoned my dad because I must admit I was expected he would come and change my wheel. But he was looking after my niece and my mum was I don't know where. I was with Laura who suggested we can go find someone in the university but no one was there. So that's why we've spent the next hour and a half changing that wheel all by ourselves. I'll never do that again, next time I'll pay someone to do it or whatever ! - Anyway, yesterday night I went to a bar with Gaelle because we lived like less than 5 kms from each other but it's been like 6 months since we've talked. So we went to the Alexandra because she used to know the barman. I discover a new drink called XUXU : it's strawberry with vodka. That's dangerous because you don't have the taste of the vodka so you drink it like some fruit juice. He was so happy to see Gaelle he offered us our drink and make us try more vodka cocktails, I've really like the marshmallows and vodka one. - Good news I'll work in that bank this summer which means I'll quit that job in that supermarket, that's the best thing that could happen to me. No really, I'll take so much pleasure quitting that f****** supermarket. - And tonight I'll go to some party organized by the medical students and tomorrow night another one organized by the law students. It's funny as you can see it's two different worlds because the theme of the first one is roman orgy and of the second one is being class.
Here's my theory : I'm 20 and even if I don't believe it, it's kind of true when you've turned 20 things change. I mean that may sound stupid but I feel a bit grown up, it's not that I'm a big guy as I'm 20 but more because, I dunno, some events make you change. For example now I've got a car I'm more independent and responsible so I may act more independently and responsively in my life in general. Then, you've got the fact I have my "own" life this year as I only have 2 hours by week at the Uni. I mean I have plenty of time for myself doing what I want. Finally, I know that I'll have the house all for myself because my parents are moving. I do love my parents even if I want them to go away So, all this things make me feel like I'm the king of the world with my life, my car, my cat and my house but as it will be only in one month I'm frustrated, that's why everything seems so uncool, anti-rock 'n roll and whatever. But I'm good...
I shouldn't have told you I was in a good mood 'cuz since then everything is going wrong, absolutely everything ! First, remember when I said I'll work in that bank this summer, well I've been told today that in fact it's not sure because of some ridiculous reasons which I think are fakes !!
Then, you've got that people who really gets on my nerve and who can go fuck a HUGE tree. The more I see people, the more I want to be far far away from here.
Ho and that supermarket I should quit, now they say They owe me money and they want me to work more, but I've planned to quit as I thought they hate me !!
Life is fucking Ironic and that's not funny.
I was watching that stupid show Las Vegas, about a surveillance team charged with maintaining the security of the Montecito Casino, and I was wondering if it could really exist. I mean, not a surveillance team of a casino in Las Vegas, but a group of young beautiful guys and hot chicks working together. Seriously, except maybe the fashion world, you have few chance of having supermodels and babe-a-licious coworkers.
It reminds me a conversation I had in high school with a girl I used to know, she was REALLY cute. So we were talking when she said something like : Guess what, I always choose my friend with regard to their external appearance and I want you to know you're one of them. I didn't know what to think about because she said I was kind of cute but that was all that matter. She explained as she was proud of her friends she could go anywhere with them and do anything. Yep, that's a point but not mine !
Anyway, talking about recollections, remember the perfume I won in that nightclub. I thought it smell like 'anesthesia' but didn't really know why. I finally figure it out, it's the perfume of the dentist that operate on for my wisdom tooth...
Happy Tuesday !
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